Diana's Psalm

The tears are flowing, I feel them inside,
But no one can see them, they don't flow from my eyes.

Sheeting off my heart they go,
I can feel the pool build from the flow.

Inside my soul the tears rise high,
All you see on the outside is a quiet sigh.

I can't even tell you the source of my tears,
Is it from my hurts? Is it from my fears?

As against a dam they continue to press,
The ache in my heart, robs me of rest.

Has anyone drown from tears they've not shed?
These are the thoughts that swim in my head.

My heart overwhelmed, I try to hold on,
But these feelings I feel, just feel so wrong.

Weighed down deep my heavy heart hangs low,
How much more will they build till they'll just overflow?

Lord take these tears, make them do what You will,
For they've built up inside, there's no room to fill.

Something must give, and bring sweet release,
This pressure that builds, it just has to cease.

I can't even see You, and it isn't my choice,
The rushing so loud, it drowns out your voice.

Break down the dam, please let the tears free,
I'm afraid if You don't, I will drown inside of me.

Need, longing, hurt, bottled inside,
It's only in You I can truly confide.

I know You know the answers to questions that elude,
Break down the dam, in my heart please intrude.

Even though I can't ask, on Your answer I'll wait,
Because I know you'll be there and You won't be too late.

Jesus, You'll answer this need I don't know,
And with You I won't drown in this difficult flow.

I know You see clearly what I can't understand,
So I'll just keep reaching out to hold to Your hand.

You won't let me drown in this cascade of tears,
So I'll trust in Your presence, believe that You're here.

I will ride this flow, until it leads me to You,
Because I know You have the answers to what I should do.

So strengthen the current, please turn the tide,
So I can find my way through the tears inside.

Help me to find You, to make Your presence real,
Take away the hurt and the sadness I feel.

Bring about a wave, that I can ride to You,
To overcome the storm, You must lead me through.

By Diana DePriest
© July 21, 2010